i miss you!

you are so beautiful.

congrats on the wedding date. you'll look like barbie on your wedding day.

love ya hon-Juli

Awwwhh, congrats! ^^ I hope you two live happily ever after! <33

~Annnnnna!

hey chicky!! it's jess. i miss you like crazy =[ and i haven't heard from you in a couple of days. i feel like we only call eachother at night.. haha. i got a new job.. and zach is being a jerk again. but what's new? ugh. i guess call me whenever you see this! love ya!

aHH have fun in florida- whereas I left a few days ago and miss it like hell :[ whateverss Im in europe with family..lets see what this time brings this time- tell me how the call goes and how florida is to you

Hope you and ronnie have mucho fun

so glad you're okay. can't wait for those pictures, you're always so beautiful!

<3 Juli

Have fun!!

xoxo

Hey Marisa What happened to your pregnancy? I'm outta the loop.

Would you be able to ask Brandi to add me?

Thanks

Aww Marisa!!!
I'm glad you're back, I've been missing you so much.
Always checked your page to see if you have updated
And yes finally lol i'm glad you're back

I'm happy for you and the fact that things are going well,
I hope Ronnie gets the job at Ford, that would be awesome!!
Get well soon<333 take care of yourself

Yours,
Dee.!!

dude glade your back i've missed you. sorry about you health situation. i hope ronnie gets the job.

was wondering why did you delet me on myspace, did i do something wrong?

hope to talk to you soon

<3 Juli

Ah i bet it looks really nice by now,
My bedroom is red as well, rich color.

Take pictures and post them here, i wanna seeeeee

ily,
Dee.

I love red :D I love rich red  and I always want to do that in my house someday :D :D :D

good choice of color

don't be jelous of me. i feel the same about you.

i'll post more as i take them,lol.

hope your day gets better

<3 Juli

Yeahhh i know that mood =/

Hehe i'm russian too :P
Good luck at doing the cleaning and stuff
and taking care of a four week old is wow, so hard lol

I love you,
Dee.

I WiiiSh I haD A Job!.. I NeeD MONEY!.. LoL!
*&* I DefiniteLy Hop U Gett Ur HouSe CLeaneD BefOre The PeoPLe Come!!..
Luv *Dee*

it's funny, i always say the same about you. you're beautiful. and look like barbie. lol.

[hehehe,not many people know this now, but in highschool my nickname was barbie girl,lol]

you are super cute. defenatly look great with baby. i am praying for you honey.

<3Juli

Marisa is sooo pretty
You have a gorgeous smile <3

Dee.x

get well soon <3
When you have time check my last entry, there's something about you..
i love you,
Dee, x. <3

Get well soon <3 I'm glad you're kinds feeling better =)
You should eat healthy, and you are too skinny to lose any weight..
Take care of yourself,
Ily,
Dee.

Jason turns 21 on the 31st of jan

and i have the SAME EXACT FEARS

It blows but it will get better :)

I hope you feel better.

and twins would be a major handful!!!

xo

Marissa,
don't worry im sure that things are going to be fine
maybe you two just aren't ready to be married, not saying
thats a bad thing or anything. but maybe you two should
wait until you two have a comfortable living with all the
other things. well i hope that things work out for you and
ronnie. wishin you two all the best!

take care
<3 ashleymarie

Ya, if you're not sure, it's not good to commit to something like marriage.  It should be a happy thing that you're 100% positive about.  There's nothing wrong with waiting.  If you're going to be together forever, why does it matter if you wait another couple months or even a year or two?

And I doubt if he'll be going out to bars all the time when you have rent and bills to pay, it's EXPENSIVE!

Girl,

This is kinda scary! I an been on that same page that your on now! Sometimes I am go back lol.

When Josh and I got in engaged, I was having them thoughts the what if and his my everything how could i go on with out him. I wanted to give him the ring back and make it clear I wanted him to be ready to be totally mine like I am his. I did just that. I gave him the ring back. We was unengaged for about 6 months and one day he reasked me. It was more special to me then the first time.

You should think about things that is going on with you and him. Talk to him. That will help lots. Then if you still feel u wanna give the ring back do it. It will show him u are for real and that you should be treated like a queen.

sometimes you have to spell things out for males. lol

Some of your pics remind me of Mandy Moore, who is really hot lol. I think its mostly the shape of your mouth.

Amanda

Hun i hope you feel better soon :(
If you don't mind me asking, why don't you get back to school or take some course so you can get a better job?

ily,
Dee.

Well maybe the children do not need him around... everything happens for the best.. i love you..
Dee.

Thanks for the comment =]. you are really pretty too. You look good in brunnette and blonde hair too.

hahha. the drunkkk ones made me laugh. hahah. it reminds me of soemthing ide do

thanx babe for the support
yeah i think i'm gonna shower and go out

i love you...
Dee

Thank you sweetie for the comment
made me feel better <3

no one ever seen me this upset
i feel so pathetic to show what i feel
but i can't always keep it inside me
i always wanna be a strong person
but it isn't working ]:

ily,
Diana.

very nice pics, you're so pretty <3

Hope you feel better by now, maybe ronnie's brother staying with you isnt a good idea..
too much drama and you guys don't have any time to each other i'm guessing...

take care,
Diana.

This is brother of his needs sorting out..

he has a girlfriend whom gave birth and doesnt seem too really care bout her or you and ronnie for that matter all he seems to me is that he cares for himself.. which is rather selfish of him.. have you tried talking to him or reconsidering his actions.. this is your home .. think what would be best.

Hope Goes Well x

aww tell him you want more respect and talk to him so you guys can fix it, hope everything goes well tomorrow! i cant comment early but ill check up on you later when i can? promise

mucho loves!

love the test- helps me pictah a bit ttyl>"

i desided to stay.

i really hope that you and brandi get togehter in feb, i think it's cute you may get to spend valentines together:)

<3juli

drama is not fun and i really hope 2008 is better for you, i think we all deserve a better year!

keep your head up and your heart strong, you will be ok :)

so sorry to hear that you have so much drama.

hope things get better for you soon.

glad to hear that things are getting better between you and ronnie.

well take care

<3 ashleymarie

ps.comment back soon please&&thankyou

i changed my mind,lol.

so i'm still here.

hope things get better for you soon...

<3 Juli

I came on here to make an entry exactly like this. I'm having the same problems with my boyfriend, drugs etc, he wont stop even though I'm almost 7 months pregnant with his baby. Honestly, reading through this I am exactly the same with everything. So I know how you're feeling, and I know how hard it is to decide what to do. Hope everything works out for you xx

I think you should tell him if he doesnt stop youŽll leave and if he doesnŽt leave, use the courage I so know you have and leave. DonŽt go back to him either, i know you love him but as everyone else has said, he wonŽt change.

Mucho Amorrr <33

To be honest, don't get mad, but he is NOT going to change, everyone can tell you this.
and this is what we always hear from people, if you don't like smth in a person don't hope he'd change, because this is him, he is convinced that what he is doing is okay, and he is not willing to change, even if he promises.

You are such a beautiful person, and he doesn't deserve you.
if he appreciated you, he would have changed ages ago... besides i think you should think about trying for a baby again. think if he's the person you wanna do this with...

think twice, act wise.
i wish you all the best,
and i hope you feel better by now.
ily, di.

So i'll give you an honest comment, you'll be offended or mad, but whatever.

He isnt going to change. Its going to be the same sh*t over and over and it will never be different. Of course he's going to make all these promises and of course he's going to say things will be different, but deep down inside you know that its going to always go back to what it was. People cant just change just like that. Ive read past entries, and from the sounds of it, ronnie is addicted. To drugs, anger, and whatever else it may be.
I dont feel sorry for you at all. You knew how it was. And if i remember right, wasnt this the guy that you broke up with because he was physically abusive?? What the f*** would you go back to that?? Ive been in more than one relationship like that, and i wouldnt think twice of letting it happen again, not to mention im much more cautious of who im with now because of the past. But your just letting it happen. You think you love him, think your ready to spend the rest of your life with him.
If you truly loved him, it wouldnt be this non stop back and forth battle. Every other entry is "oh i hate him i cant do this", when the one right before that is "oh he's so perfect i love him".. Love isnt like that. I realize that now too. He obviously doesnt love you if your constantly crying. He doesnt love you if your not happy. If he really did, he'd be there for you after a fight, to talk things out, to compromise, and to agree to stop his negative actions. But he wont do that. Its annoying reading these entries and it just goes back and forth between immature and childish fighting.
I will say, that from the sounds of it, you dont know what love is. You get a piece of positive attention from someone you like, and then it automatically turns into love. I'll be honest, i can be the same way. Its taking alot of me right now to realize what true love is. You dont know what you want in life, and you shouldnt be expected to know either.
Now, i know im not by you, or close to you. I dont know the good things, but what i do know is what i read here. I see the things you type. I dont know how he treats you outside of these entries or the fights or whatever. But im just throwing my opinion out there. No one likes to be alone, but if thats what it takes for you to be happy, maybe thats the best thing.

Hope you have a good new years eve despite whats going on.
~MeL~

thanks very much :]

- lauren

very beautiful && meaningful. i love ittt<3

&&thank you so much ! :]]

tellmexwherexarexyou<3333

hope u recoverd that was wrong for him to do embarress u like that im sure he wouldnt like it

WOW!

Girl, I dont know what to say other then its hard to teach an old dog a new trick. You cant change anyone. I mean I have tried with Josh and most of the time he goes right back to how he was.

If i was you i'd get out.

However, I am not you. Ijust wishyou the best.

Is ronnie your boyfriend?

Girl you deserve better

x x

I am sorry i havent commented in so long!

It sounds like you are doing great though. I am happy for ya!

Don't feel bad...we all have those moments. Sometimes when we really REALLY did not need it.

Aww they must be soo happy! I'm happy for them, and i hope they have a good life=]]

Comment my latest entry?

Thanks, x0x0, Erica.

at least you still get to take care of him!
that will be fun... and great practice for when you are a mother.
thank you =)
you have such big pretty eyes!

that is super sweet!!

I love him more than anything...
But I dont know how to tell him..
In the past everytime i was serious with anybody,
I got cheated on and hurt.

And I just dont know how to word what I feel for him.. it seems impossible.....

it sounds all so wonderful, its good to hear that things are going well for her! and you too ;)

i miss times like that. i took them for granted i think.

hope your holidays go well

Hah awesome glad you had fun. lol I couldnt stop laughing at the ending it was funny =]

 " we have been all lovie dovie, and kissy kissy. its so cute. Plus good sex....Yummmm....."

yepp that part lol
<3Cassie

sorry to hear that ur havin a bad day. i hope that it gets better.

ugh that sucks that you didn't get to talk to Brandi

hopefully you two are able to talk tonight.

im super happy to hear that your feeling better.

yeah guys don't want to seem to get up early when they have to.

I swear sometimes they can be so lazy [no offence to Ronnie or anything]

well take care hun

:)

love you sweetie!

<3 ashleymarie

thank you for your comment. I wish i didnt have to hurt right now, but its a given this time of year. Youre very pretty and very lucky. Wish i could be like you :)

um maybe thats a sign of too much stress.

it use to happen alot to my mom with having to much stress.

maybe because ur working alot and not really having anytime for yourself.

I think that you should deff go see a doctor just to make sure its nothing super serious or anything like that. Well hun I wish you the best of luck.

Comment back and let me know how things are.

Take Care

love you!

<3 ashleymarie

=(
Sweetie, i really hope you feel better by now...
It happens to me sometimes when i'm under stress so yeah i think it's normal...
Do you eat well?

Lemme know how you feel when you see the comment
I love you! Di xx

Well first off you have to remember why we have periods..i dont think its anything serious..During each period, the inner lining of your uterus is shed through the vagina, the passage that connects your inner reproductive organs to your outer sex organs. This lining is mostly blood and other tissues that have been building up since your last period. During your last period..it may not have gotten rid of all that extra tissue lining. I had this problem last month and i was scared and went and got a check up and thats what my doctor told me. So i dont think there is anything wrong with you..No need to worry. =]] ok well i hope this helped you and good luck with everything! =]]
Chealsea Marie =]]

Oh my friend usual get that sometimes. Twice a month ( due to a lot of stress, anixety) Stress can cause anything. Dont worry. Probably its normal. But if it last for few days.. then I suggest you to go get a check up...

Ashley

Sound like it's just your body having extra blood to flush out, and seen as you aren't crippled with stomach cramps, i doubt it's anything serious.

If you experience any changes in normal bodily functions, always ask yourself one questions; Have a made an reasonably considerable changes to my lifestyle recently?

If yes, then that's usually the cause, whether its your diet or just run of the mill stress, when it disrupts your body, it's worth changing back.

If you're still bleeding like this tomorrow, i definitely would suggest you go and see your GP!

Marisa, Would you ask Brandi to add me to her favorites ?? She went private. I sure do enjoy both of your diaries because you both sort of remind me of me. I will understand though if she doesn't want to. Take care, beautiful.

Julie

Ahahah ignore them lol
i'm glad you finally had time to talk
to Brandi

I love you, di.

Awww that's sooo sweet of him
I'm glad you enjoyed your night lol
My bf should learn from your bf or smth
haha no but seriously he should be like more
romantic uhhhhhhhhhh

anyway ily, di, xxxxx

sure I don't mind.

:)

always makes me happy when people add me to their add to their favs.

thanks hun.

take care

<3 ashleymarie

glad to hear that things are good between you and ronnie.

hope ur family likes their gifts.

well um take care

<3 ashleymarie

ps. comment back soon please&&thankyou

All that matters is that you are completely happy.  Cherish that and take care of it cuz life doesnt give us that often.  Let's talk sometime

c.